what the fuck is happening to me?

what the fuck is happening to me?

including today, it's been 2 days that i just decided not to go to work. why? i don't know. i just don't felt like going to work. and the thing is i've been warned before that i should inform the people at the office if i'm not coming to work. and i didn't. i just simply fucked it. but anyone can still get hold of me if they call my mobile, that is if i decide to answer them.

sometimes i really don't know what the fuck am i doing and what the fuck is happening to me. i have no motivation anymore. nothing i do excites me. i tried to do strange new things. you know, the other day, i walked home from the office. that's right i WALKED home. usually by bus it would take me around half an hour to reach home from the office. but when i walked home, it took me about 70 minutes. and i walked non stop for the whole 70 minutes. and if you know me, you'd know i walk fast. that's probably why it only took 70 minutes. and the thing is i didn't feel tired at all. i reckon i could still go on after 70 minutes.

my stamina is improving definitely. that's all because of my jogging regime that i follow strictly now. jog 5 km twice a week, one on weekdays and one on weekends. it may not seem much but the result speaks for it.

i love jogging or running, whatever you call it. sometimes when i'm running, i would imagine that something or someone bad is chasing me and i have to run as fast as i possibly can to get away from it. that's why i love running. cos i can get away from it all.